Anti-Mormon & losing faith

I’m 47 years old. I haven’t always been active in the Church. (The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints) I stopped going to church when I was about 16 and didn’t start going back until I was 19. During that time of being inactive in the Church, I never doubted the teachings. I never lost faith in God, the Book of Mormon, or the Prophet Joseph Smith. I still believed it all. I just didn’t want to follow the commandments. The world had so many exciting and distracting things for me to pursue and Church was not one of them.  But I knew I was breaking commandments. I was willingly rebelling against it all.

I know a lot of friends from high school and elsewhere who have done the opposite. They were active in the Church, maybe even went on a mission and got married in the temple, but now are not active. Some have gone even further than that. They’ve completely lost faith in God altogether and have become what you might call, Anti-Mormon, or someone who seems to always openly criticize the Church and its leaders including the prophet for pretty much everything.

Growing up, my mother was inactive. In fact, she was re-baptized into the Church when I was about 13. I don’t recall the exact time, but I remember the missionaries coming over and teaching us.  She was married to my brother Nick’s father, Nick Sr. He was Greek Orthodox and never did join the Church. They eventually were divorced.


Me when I was 17 years old

A couple weeks ago in sacrament meeting, a brother in the ward told a story about how his mother had stopped believing in the teachings of the Church and was inactive for 30 years.  She tried to find happiness in many different things through those years, always searching. The happiest day of her life, she said, was the day that she put her temple garments back on and renewed her commitment to follow God and the commandments and live the gospel of Jesus Christ every day. I can believe that. After 30 years of not having the blessings that come from having the Spirit with you, attending the temple, and partaking of the sacrament; after all of the promised blessings that she had given up for 30 years, it must have been a very happy day indeed.

I recently listened to a podcast that told the story of  Dusty Smith. It’s an interesting story that I’ve thought about a lot since listening to the podcast.  Dusty joined the Church as a young man after reading The Book of Mormon. He served a mission in Honduras. He came home and got a law degree and started reading things about the Church and Joseph Smith which turned him against the Church. He removed his name from the records of the Church and began a long crusade against the Church taking every opportunity to try to persuade people to disbelieve in the Church’s teachings, the Book of Mormon, Joseph Smith, etc. He even mentioned that he went back to Honduras to try and convince some of the people whom he had taught during his mission, to leave the Church. He was what I would call, extremely “anti-Mormon.”

After many many years, and through a number of miracles, his heart softened, and he eventually asked his stake president if he could be re-baptized and join the Church again.  He finally realized, “No matter how much he searched, researched, and debated online, these answers could only come from his Heavenly Father.”

His story is so remarkable, that it was recently featured on LDS Living and President Dieter F. Uchtdorf even talked about it at General Conference. President Uchtdorf said, “Over time, slowly, (Dusty) did change. He began to remember with fondness the spiritual experiences he once had, and he remembered the happiness he had felt when he was a member of the Church.” Dusty had found his dormant faith and is now fully engaged in the gospel of Jesus Christ.

So what was it that made the lady in the sacrament talk, my mother, me, and Dusty Smith come back to the faith? I’ve thought a lot about this because I have some dear friends and family members who are at this point in time, in one of these spots; Losing faith, inactive, and some are even what you might call anti-Mormon.


Me and my bride Jennifer, May 6, 1995

I’m currently serving in our ward as the ward mission leader.  As I’ve got to know some members who have stepped away from the Church, I have tried to think back to what it was that brought me back to the Church, and even got me to put college on hold for two years while I served a mission in Bordeaux, France? What was it that got me fully engaged in the gospel again and has kept my testimony burning bright ever since?

As I have pondered this, I honestly think that there are only a few limited things that we can do as friends, ward members, and family of those who have chosen a different path. We can’t argue with them about doctrine or Church history and convince them of anything.  We won’t prove we are right. It is not likely that we will “convert” them.

What did Jesus command us to do? Love one another.  That is what is required of us. I really think it is that simple. It is now the whole program of the Church, to minister to one another.

We can sanctify ourselves. We can stay active in our sacrament meeting attendance, temple attendance, and in ministering to others. We can live a life close to the Lord and pray fervently for those who have strayed. God hears our prayers for our prodigal sons, daughters, brothers, sisters, and dear friends.  If we are doing this, then God will reach out at the appropriate time, and touch their heart.  That is what happened to me.  I felt loved and I felt God pulling me closer to Him and back to church.  I’m sure for many years my grandmother and mother prayed and fasted for me.  They probably put my name in the temple. I know they showed me a lot of love. When I finally knelt down in humble prayer by myself next to my bed in my room late one night, that was it. That is all it took. The Spirit strongly witnessed to me that I was to serve a mission and get my life in order.

I don’t expect my friends, family, and fellow ward members who are on another path to have an Alma the younger experience where an angel confronts them, though I suppose it could happen. What I can see happening for many of them, is that at some time, maybe it will be 30 years from now, if they have been loved by us, their friends, their family, and their ward members, then when their hearts are prepared, the Spirit will touch them and bring them back.

Bringhurst Family Oct-2016-A

My family October 2016

I know the blessings in the Holy Temples of God are real.  These temple blessings are ours to have, by following the commandments and keeping our covenants with God. I want these blessings for my family, my friends, and my ward members. Does anything else really matter? The temple blessings are eternal. They are real. They seal families together for eternity through the Holy Priesthood of God. These blessings are more precious than money, wealth, gold, silver, and the distractions and entertainment offered by the world. They are Holy. They are truth. They are everlasting. They bring peace. They are from our Heavenly Father.

When we go to the House of the Lord we walk on sacred ground. We leave the world behind and turn ourselves to God. I’m grateful that I only spent 3 years and not 30 years searching for true happiness. This happiness we are all searching for only comes when our will and the will of the Lord are in harmony.

I pray for my dear loved ones that these eternal blessings will be theirs too, sooner than later. God is waiting.

Heavenly Father, are you really there?
And do you hear and answer ev’ry child’s prayer?
Some say that heaven is far away,
But I feel it close around me as I pray.
Heavenly Father, I remember now
Something that Jesus told disciples long ago:
“Suffer the children to come to me.”
Father, in prayer I’m coming now to thee.

Pray, he is there;
Speak, he is list’ning.
You are his child;
His love now surrounds you.
He hears your prayer;
He loves the children.
Of such is the kingdom, the kingdom of heav’n.

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Jason Bringhurst lives in Port Angeles, Washington, USA. I am the father of 6 children, husband of the lovely and talented Jen Bringhurst, a small business owner, a listener of 80's new-wave music, an enthusiast of hot-rod & classic cars, a lover of pizza & Diet Coke, and a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. This blog in no way is meant to officially represent The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, nor is it meant to be officially related to my current ward or calling in Port Angeles, nor my former wards or callings in Highland and Springville, Utah. is simply a way for me to spread sunshine and share my faith.

8 thoughts on “Anti-Mormon & losing faith

  1. You seem to be missing some good comments. They must have been misplaced in the spam folder. It’s not like you would silence someone that disagrees with you.


    1. Thanks for your comment. Sorry I did not approve this earlier. I attended church, spent the day with family and visited my mother for Mother’s Day. As for approving every comment, I’m not going to approve them all. My blog is supposed to be a place people come to be uplifted. I don’t want it to be a place for criticism and arguments. I hope you understand.

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  2. I hope you don’t mind me challenging your point of view, for I am an ex-mormon. Often labeled as “anti-mormon” which is a loaded phrase, with a heavy dose of mistrust, and often misused to describe people like me. It usually serves as a term of warning for the faithful, almost as permission to feel free to discard what they may have to say, or what they feel… and we feel that. We feel the disdain, and pity that term signals and it is not productive to healthy communication, or interpersonal relationships with our friends and neighbors regardless of faith status.

    While I can agree with the premise and idea of “love thy neighbor” (without any belief in Jesus, or divinity etc.) it is a lost meaning to many of our mormon friends and neighbors. The word love rings hollow because it always comes with an agenda tied to it. Do you love us with no strings attached, and just as neighbors and friends, or is there always that vain hope we will become one of you, or return to being one of you? Trust me, we feel it. We feel the lack of love, because while we do believe most of our mormon friends and neighbors are well meaning, the love is always a hollow one because that love is sucked away by the agenda. By treating us with pity, and as though we have strayed. For people to feel loved, they need to feel validation, and we cannot be validated by the mormon faithful because that would mean challenging their own faith, the things they believe, or even the things they claim to “know.”

    If you truly want to just love your ex-mormon, anti-mormon, inactive, or never member neighbors and friends it really does boil down to losing that vain hope they will become just like you faith wise. Can you truly be happy for them and their life, based on the way they feel about it? We find happiness and fulfillment that is not counterfeit as your leaders claim. It is genuine, so can you feel genuine for us without the requirement of hoping we will join/return that is always attached?

    We ex-mormons have been in your shoes with the faith perspective. Our path is different, but we also desire to take care of you, and of each other as part of our human condition and part of the human family/experience. We are just as interested in your health and safety. We just think you are wrong from a faith perspective, much like you think we are wrong. Can we get past that already, and stop thinking we are better than each other/stop pitying each other? Maybe then, we can truly claim to love each other without the hollowness that comes from an agenda.

    I will always stand against many of the church organizations policies, doctrines, and agendas that I believe are harmful, but I will also always be willing to stand with my mormon neighbors and look after the safety of them and their families, and their right to see the world differently than me. So no, I am not anti-mormon. Most of us aren’t.


    1. Thanks for your thoughtful response. I believe that this is the point I was trying to make, to love unconditionally. If the person comes back to the Church, it will be because of the impressions they receive from the Spirit. I don’t know how a faithful Mormon could not hope for that, but I understand what you are saying. That should not be the motive behind loving someone. The term Anti-Mormon in my blog directly refers to Dusty Smith, and that is the title he gave himself. He was a self-proclaimed anti-Mormon. You do not sound like an anti-Mormon to me. 🙂


  3. you drink diet Coke? that’s okay, I love you anyway. Hopefully, if I love you long enough you will stop breaking the Word of Wisdom!!


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